hi, my new life begins with something new!

emo-ing seems to have switched place with my happiness !
probably becos of dad or rather the same damn reason ughhhh !
i realise that i've beeen listening to lots of emotional songs !
lifehouse has lots of emo songs. damn its damn nice too !
but, the songs just hits your mind to the lowest part & makes you think about all the emotional stuffs which is definitely not what i wanna think about !
if every songs would be so hyper it would be awesome , then i wouldnt be like that !
IF IF IF .... if everything in the world is about "if", i think every one's life will be perfect !
but sad to say, IF is something that you've done & regretted !
i have that IF in my life ! & IF i saw it coming i would have ignored it !
but i dont have that special eyes to seee whats coming ! i regretted so many things in my life
not studying well & getting good grates & i regretted knowing some people .
friends are amazing, but SOME friends only. i wanna grow up graduate from PHS & study hard !
i wanna forget every single sad memories there in phs where i knew so many people.
i think some memories shouldnt have been in my mind, if there was this medicine i could take & forget some memories left in my mind, i would risk all my life to get that medicine....
for now, studying is the next thing in life. i wanna be a world most famous chef !
thats my goal for now, i promise myself that i will try to forget everything, every emotional things in my life becos i know its not the right time yet think about that ! i will go shatex, study hard learn all the cooking skills & open a restaurant & passing down my pap's secret recipe (:
i love him, & i decided to name my restaurant "dad's little secret" & in future if you passs by this shop please come in (: i would be Glad to invite you to my restaurant (:
im happy that my brother wants to be a chef tooo ! he said he want to chooose culinary when he goes ITE, i think we flow ! i love my brother & i miss him dearly D: brother we going out this monday can you contact me ? i cant contact you ):

yeaps, so for now im turning my life around! STUDY STUDY STUDY !
get good grates, leave Presbyterian & the memories & walk towards my goal !
its great to think about your future now & think which path you should take.
going in to gangs, smoking, drugs, quitting school, fights, stealing & all this are the paths you should not take. i know some friends that has bright future but they took a wrong path & hopefully they knows & start thinking straight becos now, its not to late to quit !
everyone has a future, is whether you believe you can do it or not. so im praying that my friends wont be like that.

(Dear God, i pray for my friends that they will know which paths they should take & which they shouldnt take to lead to their future, give them the faith to continue with the good things & not the bad ! give them the confident to walk towards their goal & lead a happy life in future. AMEN)

so friends, i encourage you to think what is right & what is wrong.
at this age everyone always does the wrong things which they thinks its correct & coool !
but actually its not, when time comes, getting out of that situation is not easy !
probably you're denying now, but its okay, its your life as long as you choose the right paths !
when days, weeks, years passs, dun regret that you've chose the wrong path & walked into somewhere far from your goal. becos i can tell you that we cant rewind the time neither go back to where we started! so think twice before doing any stupid stuffs, which leads you into the wrong path ! so guys, we shall meet @ the end where our runs stops.

as for now, i shalll watch some shows to make me stop thinking about all this !
& i dearly wanna meet brother & peifan (:

lotta loves,
Charlotte (:



p/s : i spread my wings & learn how to fly.