it was a relaxing day today !
school ? haha, didnt attend !
why ? hmmmmm, certain people know.
CONFIDENTIAL ! haahaahaha...
yah..
what i did at home ?
i slept till 2.05pm !
good?
YES OF COURSE GOOD !
talk to dad as tuesday was a day off for him .
yah, its been a long time since i accompany dad like that !
slack all the way ! laze around like a pig man !
haha, watch tv & more tv ! haha
& out for dinner with parents !
haha, yahhhhhhhh....
in car dad & i had a conversation about gangsters now a days !
dad : you better dun learn to join gang & stuff hor! now adays gang groups & things like that are very different from the past !
me : huh whats the different ? plus dun worry im not that stupid ... -.-
dad : last time gangsters are real gangsters, now a days gangsters are all about guards. whether you have the guards to step out & fight. now a days ah.... in one group they find problem, when they are alone, they are as scared as the rat ! if they one big group go out together to fight, of course they dare, but when there is only one person left all they'll say is "TOLONG TOLONG, SORRY SORRY PLEASEEE...."
me : hahahahhaha, woah you're like a perfect gangster in the past ! hahaahahahah....
hahaha the conversation was hilarious to the max !
haha yah my dad ah can be as clown as ever !
i wonder why my friends says his face has the fierce looking look !
does he ? hahaha..... alll he does is stupid thing & super funnyyyy !
he just make me laugh larh ! haha.....
yahhh, im missing my darling, peifan, menghui, jialing & brother ! ;D
i'll be going school tomorrow so dun worry & dun sad ! ! haha ! ;D
till then ! ;D
loves,
Charlotte ! :D
HAH !
school was perfectly fine today! ;D
with my contagious laughter ! haha ....
we did experiment during science class !
haha & Mr Ong said "you are the first class doing experiment in the canteen....."
haha i was like "WOAHHH XIA SUAY ! "
LOLS , maths was predictable, boring. all the sums & stuffs it adding to my stress & its making me go crazy like anything !
English ? nahhhhhhhhh 3 periods lehh, you sure you wanna hear me nag about her ?!
haha i doubt yes ...
so yahhh, chinese was extremely noisy + boring + stupid -.-
precisely, all we do is XI ZI !
cant we ever get to do something else interesting ?
but i guesss everything to me aint interesting !
haha chinese is a simply waste of time subject !
arghhhh ~
anw, dismissal was a problem, leong & co. had netball match, leaving my darling & i out !
so we slacked awhile & then went home as i didnt felt much hyper anyway.
i might just spoil my darling's mood so yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
decided to head home earlier today since i've nothing to do anyway.
yah was sadly messaging my darling about sad stuffs .
yah long & long & long pages of messages !
yah as i typed, i nearly cried in the bus when some stupid emo song played on my phone.
but not letting people's mind go wild so i suck in my tears! haha !
yah, i finally had everything out of my mind, but its just temporary !
when i see them, my nonsense will still go round my head !
then was messaging with darling & she said
"You can never face challenges without being brave and strong.
Moreover, you musnt lose faith in yourself.
If you lose Faith, you'll feel everything is a chaos to you.
There is still a long way in life,
If you gonnna stress about minor thing like LOVE,
Then arent you gonna have depression when you're older.
Remember, I will always be there for you whether we are as close as the past!
No matter how hard you tried but still failed,
all you have to know is that you've done your best."
this whole thing darling sent me had impacted me !
i read & read & read, & i realise, she's right. I MUSNT LOSE FAITH !
yah although i already know that im giving myself FALSE HOPE !
so yah, i dun expect anything, because i dun even want it !
i just hope that my darling & co. will always be there for me .
becos i think im breaking down soon. i cant stand all this nuisance anymore.
its making me even more stress plus studying add up to my stress which makes me wanna give up sooner or later ! but i know i must be brave & stay strong & conque all challenges that is coming forward. even if i fall, i'll stand up again & continue conquing my challenges no matter how difficult it is !
so if you think you're facing the same problem as me, read the whole thing my darling sent & then reflect on yourself ! i meant what for you get so stress over a guy yeah?
to make it simpler, I THINK YOU'RE WASTING YOUR TIME !
someone said "ALL GUYS ARE JERKS"
PRECISELY ! I AGREEEE ! but only SOME.
im still waiting for a guy to prove to me that what that someone said was wrong .
but none, seriously none.
its just another bunch of flirters or despos that needs girl so much & then breaks a girl's heart like breaking a glass for freee !
gooodnessss, but yah i've awaken from a long sleeeeppp...
now im going to start my life we a new topics !
no longer love , but FRIENDS :DDDD
& haha, i wannna say sorry to SHANE TAN KAH HOW for venting my anger on you !
haha, yah, i know you were pretty blur becos i just typed out longgg phrases that made you so confuse ! haha, & later then i knew that menghui had actually vent her anger on you too !
haha becos of the basketball thing . haha !
yahh, but, you know you're a great friend !
:D a gentleman. if people continues to suan you, just ignore them okay ! ;D
becos, they dunnno where to draw a line, A LIMIT !
maybe they dunno how you feel , or maybe they dun even want to know.
but just to let you know that , WE ARE BESTFRIENDS MAN !
i can tell that you're sad ! i dun have to wait for you to tell me !
yahhhh , CHEER UP DUDE ! like how you cheered me up !
STOP LISTENING TO EMOO SONGS ! HAHA !
okayyyyyyyy, my post have seriously became 99.9% emoooo !
haha, so im gonnna add in a lil hypernessss to make it 99.8% emo!
hahah nah i was just crapping ! LOLS
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN A MONTH TIME ! 30th APRIL 2009 !!!!!!!!!!
i cant wait ! :D HEHEHEHE !
& excuse me , i wasnt hinting ahh ! haha !
okay larh i think its time i go relax now.
becos i just neeeeeda let out some tears but it doesnt wanna come out !
maybe resting will let me relax !
till then :D
Loves,
Charlotte ! :D
p/s : THE DARLING OF MINE IS TEO PEIFAN, SHE IS A VERY SPECIAL PERSON TO ME ! & NOT FORGETING THE REST WHO WERE ALWAYS THERE ENCOURAGING ME :D
p/s : DO YOUR ENGLISH HOMEWORK ALREADY !? BETTER DO HOR ! IF NOT TOMORROW FIRST PERIOD ENGLISH, NO TIME TO DO ! & IF WORK NOT DONE, YOU'VE TO GO DETENTIONNN ! hahaahahahaha :D BYEEEE BYEEEEEEEE